“Emotional Baggage’s”

How will I unload the emotions when it has been 19 years, 10 months and 23 days kept in my heart? When you don’t know how it feels already because you have been numbed for years? You have forgotten into oblivion all the feelings you have kept? How will you let it out when 19 years ago, you felt anger and when you look back now, you can shrug-off a shoulder and say “I am okay.”?

I don’t know inside my heart if anger is still there after all these years. Maybe because every time I look at my children, they ease my pains, erase my fears, lighten my heart and vanishes all the anger inside. Then I realize, why I should still hate when you have reasons to move on, reasons to live life not for myself but for the little bundle of joys that God gave me.

Anger and Hatred, at times you may attack me, maybe at times you’ll still linger on me, but I will use this as my strength, a lighting torch that will guide me to strive hard (despite the hardships) and be the best Mom and Wife that I can be.